So, I was spending some time today in mediation and prayer and I started apologizing for all the time I wasted not taking control of my health and not listening to my body. Then it went past apologies and went to self-depreciation. Putting myself down for not knowing what to think and what to do to improve my health. Feeling poorly about all the years that I could have been healthier and feeling like a fool for not researching holistic health and taking care of my body the way it was designed to be taken care of. I had to stop myself. I was starting to go down that dark hole of coulda, shoulda, woulda.
I then had to apologize to myself for starting to go down that critical road. I gave myself a spiritual hug and remembered that the roads I’ve been down are part of my story. Part of my journey. Part of the plan for my life. To be critical of living the journey I was designed to live was non-productive. The truth is I’m now on the path of healing. I am working to heal myself and instead of chasing all sorts of diets and fads, I’m listening to what my body says it needs. I’m doing the Me diet-it’s all about me.
No need to put myself down or have any regrets. This is my journey, my tapestry and at the end of it-it will be beautiful. I refuse to allow myself to spend so much time regretting past mistakes that I forget to enjoy the present. Those mistakes made me who I am. I am on the path I’m on because those paths lead me here. How refreshing is that. Instead of regretting choices that didn’t produce the results I wanted, I embrace them as the choices that lead me to the place where I am now. Happy, fulfilled and working to continue my personal growth.